Its sad sometimes

My Nani, my mum's mother is well into her 80's. I do not know her exact age because he date of birth was not recorded. So we kind of know what age she is.

My image of her is of a loving grandmother who would always be of her holding my head while kissing my cheeks. It is a wonderful memory that I hope to keep forever. As a child I remember her vividly as she would look after me, my sister and cousin when our parents were at work.

The last time I saw her was about 5 or 6 years ago, until recently. The last few years have not been kind to her as her memory is fading and the happiness I use to see has disappeared. Earlier this week, I saw her at my Aunt's place where she is being looked after by my mum and her sisters for a couple of weeks.

When I looked into her eyes I could tell she did not know where she was or what she was feeling. I felt like she was somewhere and she was not really happy. Her memories must be gone and that is truly sad for her. She raised 3 sone and 5 daughters and in turn their children. She had a tough life and her marriage was not the best. But she knew that love would do wonders.

Yet the greatest thing she did was love her grandchildren.

I remember when she stayed with us in Perth for sometime, everytime we came home from school or with ourt friends she would give us a hug and kiss of on the cheeks a lot. Sometimes 2, 3, 4, 5 times. She was always happy to see us. A person feels wonderful when they are greeted like that.

When I look back on those times, I feel sad that she has now come back to this state where she can not recognise where she is and who she is with.

Life is like that sometimes.